I will

She said I wasn’t beautiful enough.

She wished I had been more like her.

She said I should’ve brushed my hair.

She told me I didn’t look good enough.

That I wore my clothes wrongly.

That I picked the wrong color of shoes.

That I should’ve been more confident.

That I could’ve done better to look nicer.

That I could’ve been prettier.

She taught me how to take a pose.

She told me a better angle for my picture.

Never once she told me I was okay.

That I was fine and hell yeah I was good enough.

That it didn’t matter if I didn’t smile all the time.

That I was worth to be with even when my choice of clothes was lame.

So, one day I told her.

That I say if I am beautiful. I say if I am strong. I say if I am cool.

That I am more than just my looks.

That she will not determine my story.

That I will.

Haura Emilia Erwin (inspired by Amy Schumer)

Iklan

Another Night

When dreams are better than reality, you wish you never had to wake up.

In my dream I am free.

You think I’m broken?

Fix me.

Or let me sleep.

For another night.

My mind has so much to say.

But my words are againts the world.

You think I’m hopeless?

Fix me.

Or let me close my eyes.

For another night.

I’m here. But I’m not.

I’m happy. But I’m not.

What we see is not what we get.

You think I’m just sad?

Fix me.

Or let me sleep.

For another night.

Why I Write

writing

I write because to me writing is healing.

I write because writing is empowering.

I write because writing keeps me sane.

I write because I like to spend time to contemplate and elaborate my ideas in words.

I write because I know I do not know everything.

Writing makes me study and read things I didn’t know before.

I do not write to impress anyone.

I do not write to tell people that I am smart.

Nor do I write for everyone.

No. I do not write for everyone.

I do not write for people who dislike my writings or myself for unjustifiable personal reasons.

People are always free to leave my page.

Readers are free to agree or disagree with me.

People are free to leave a comment on my writings.

In the end, whatever you write defines who you are.

I write for those who understand or intend to understand my point.

I write for those who are open-minded and want to learn something new everyday.

So, mine might not be for you.

I write for those who enjoy my writings.

I write for those who find my ideas useful.

I write for good critics because I learn a lot from them.

I write to eternalize my thoughts in a time capsule called writings.

I write because it makes me think.

And I think therefore I am.

17 January 2017